[...Jesus Fucking Christ it's the blind leading the blind over here. This does not inspire confidence.]
Yeah. You did.
[Admittedly, knowing there wasn't malice aforethought strips some of the anger from Wash's tone, but that still doesn't mean he's happy with the situation.]
I'm so sorry, Washington, I thought I had given you something . . . useful.
[ she hesitates. ]
I'm not feeling very . . . myself, right now, but perhaps in the future. I cannot do so now, I do not have enough strength. It takes a lot out of me, to send you to different places. I get headaches.
[ she pauses again. ]
But perhaps you can use your gift for good, even if it has a painful reminder?
'Useful' and 'traumatic' are not mutually exclusive.
[Some of what he got from Epsilon was useful. Most of it was fucking horrifying.]
...Maybe.
[It's resigned, bordering on sullen, but at least it's not angry. It's just another installment of Wash's Life Is Unnecessarily Difficult; he doesn't know why he even bothered to question it. That's just the way it is for him more often than not.]
[There's a long pause before he speaks up again.]
I don't know if you're made the same as most humans, but if you pinch the skin between your thumb and pointer finger, it helps with headaches.
Some people think their priorities are worth more than other people's well-being; some people don't care; and some people just like being cruel. It makes them feel powerful.
[It's hard not to think about Felix when this is the topic at hand.]
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Date: 2018-07-09 09:32 pm (UTC)[ mystified by the question ]
Why, do you not like it?
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Date: 2018-07-09 10:23 pm (UTC)You gave me something based on the worst experience of my life! What the hell makes you think I'd like it?!
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Date: 2018-07-12 12:51 am (UTC)I did?
[ bless her, she sounds honestly . . . confused. ]
I'm sorry, I -- I don't know exactly who you are, or where you come from, I only feel . . . I thought it would be useful for you.
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Date: 2018-07-12 01:19 am (UTC)Yeah. You did.
[Admittedly, knowing there wasn't malice aforethought strips some of the anger from Wash's tone, but that still doesn't mean he's happy with the situation.]
Can you change it?
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Date: 2018-07-12 02:51 am (UTC)I'm so sorry, Washington, I thought I had given you something . . . useful.
[ she hesitates. ]
I'm not feeling very . . . myself, right now, but perhaps in the future. I cannot do so now, I do not have enough strength. It takes a lot out of me, to send you to different places. I get headaches.
[ she pauses again. ]
But perhaps you can use your gift for good, even if it has a painful reminder?
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Date: 2018-07-12 03:56 am (UTC)[Some of what he got from Epsilon was useful. Most of it was fucking horrifying.]
...Maybe.
[It's resigned, bordering on sullen, but at least it's not angry. It's just another installment of Wash's Life Is Unnecessarily Difficult; he doesn't know why he even bothered to question it. That's just the way it is for him more often than not.]
[There's a long pause before he speaks up again.]
I don't know if you're made the same as most humans, but if you pinch the skin between your thumb and pointer finger, it helps with headaches.
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Date: 2018-07-12 04:13 am (UTC)I'm not human, but I will try it. Thank you.
[ she pauses, again. ]
I am sorry, to bring you such harm. It was never my intention to hurt any of you.
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Date: 2018-07-12 04:22 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2018-07-12 04:26 am (UTC)[ she sounds legitimately confused, by the prospect. ]
There's so much darkness in the universe without adding to it with such . . . cruelty.
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Date: 2018-07-12 05:12 am (UTC)[It's hard not to think about Felix when this is the topic at hand.]